Faithful. Good. Sovereign. Holy. All-knowing. Love. These are some words that speak of God's character. The Bible declares and affirms his character.
"God is faithful, who has called you into fellowship with his Son, Jesus Christ our Lord."-1 Corinthians 1:9
"Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the one who takes refuge in him."-Psalm 34:8
"How great you are, Sovereign Lord! There is no one like you, and there is no God but you, as we have heard with our own ears."-2 Samuel 7:22
"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding."-Proverbs 9:10
"Can anyone teach knowledge to God, since he judges even the highest?-Job 21:22
"And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them."-1 John 4:16
It is easy to read these words, tuck them away for a rainy day and go about your day-to-day living. Then that rainy day comes. In fact, it's a rainy season. Full out downpour or it at least just feels that way. Why is it so hard to trust then? I have been in Cullowhee, NC since March; I moved from Lynchburg, VA to be closer to my boyfriend. I have been unemployed since December. I have been applying for jobs in the area since December. Ideally, I wanted to have a job before moving. I mean that makes sense right? Pretty practical thinking I would say. Well, God had another plan. I can just hear Him chuckling while I type this. Currently, I am staying rent free in a basement apartment of a gracious couple until I secure a job and am able to move into my own place. Yet, I am still scared. I look at my bank account and freak out. Mind you, I have never been without; I even had the money to buy disposable razors the other day. (I can't afford my razor head replacements right now.) He is still chuckling by the way.
This rainy season has been one of waiting. Waiting. Praying. Praying. Receiving very clear direction of where I am to be employed yet still waiting. I thought this season was over with making the move. The move came together very quickly like in a matter of 2 days. 103 days of waiting for 2 days of intense action. So, naturally I thought the job would come within a few days of moving. Hey God! I was obedient, so can we put some cash flow back in my bank account? Please? 26 days later and I am still waiting. And, that's okay. Really? Yes. I mean, it really stinks most days. How do you deal with that sinking feeling in your gut that you've been forgotten? You deal with it by holding onto who God is. His truth is absolute; He is trustworthy! By the way, it was totally easier to type that out than actually believe it. Wait, what you struggle with belief? Um, yes. Pretty sure it's a more common occurrence than people are willing to admit. Worry is unbelief.
But, you see God (who is still chuckling) reminded me of something today. I didn't move to Cullowhee to become financially secure. I moved to be closer to my boyfriend Tony. Why would you do that? Well, I love him. Truly. 8 months of long distance was frankly long enough for us. It taught us invaluable lessons of communication and appreciation of one another and I wouldn't trade that for anything. However, in pursuing our future and strengthening our relationship for that 'M' word, we knew that we needed to see each other everyday. You see it was God who wonderfully orchestrated our relationship. He put us together. So, why wouldn't He make a way for us? It may not look like anything I imagined, but financial security is not my number one priority right now. Worshiping with my new church family is. Settling into community is. Reaching out to others and seeking relationships is. Getting involved in ministries and outlets as a couple is. God will take care of the rest. After all, He is faithful. He is good. He is sovereign. He is holy. He is all-knowing. He is love. AND, He is still chuckling...
"Not for a moment did you forsake me..."
